You are loved so much more than you could ever know. You have the kind of parents some children can only dream of. I know dad wasn’t there and I know that caused pain. But Ryan always was and that will never change. He didn’t just choose Mom; he chose you too. And boy, does he love you! Never once were you anything other than his beautiful daughter. Having different blood never once mattered.

Yet something inside you told you, "You’ll never fit in". You felt like such an outsider. You didn’t look like them. Your skin was dark, your hair black, and your facial features didn’t match. You are beautiful, don’t you know? But from the tears I see in your eyes, it’s clear you don’t think so.

You see blonde hair, blue eyes, happy smiles, and a confidence you could never obtain. They’re cool and you never will be, you believed. They’re pretty, and you never saw yourself that way. They’re popular, you’re just a wallflower. They’re blood-related, and you hate to admit you feel like an adopted daughter.

But you are every part of that family just as much as they are. But the voices in your head, could not have been louder, “You’re weird and different and you will never belong”. Remember that night with mom? You never wanted to go to family parties, and they didn’t understand why. It came off as hurtful. If only she knew. These lies in your head were damaging your view.

You never meant to hurt, but he felt the sting. Mom said he cried. In your hurt, you became the source of another’s pain. Now what do you do? Your feelings are only hurting them too. Pain upon pain, it’s like it never ends. So you lie down and cry when no one’s awake. You can’t help but think, maybe you’re a mistake.

My love, my heart aches at the weight that you carry. You take on their pain but you’re already weary and it’s too much for you. You don’t feel Him now, but there's Someone with you. His hand’s on your shoulder and tears well in His eyes. It hurts Him to see you this way. If only you knew, you’ve got another Father in heaven who deeply loves you. He’s waiting for you to see Him so he can give you clarity and truth in exchange for the pain you carry.