"My dear, there's still one thing you don’t quite know; two broken people don’t make a heart whole."You planned for forever, a perfect kind of dream. Yet there was something always missing it seemed. You never would have thought it would end so sadly, but I want you to remember for many years you were very glad.
It was your first. It was young, it was innocent, it was adventurous, and real. You were broken though, and so was he. In your broken worlds, you both sought peace. Found in each other's arms was an escape from the pain. He made you laugh and wiped away your tears. You set him free and made him perceive what love was meant to be.
His home life distorted that view. But something was still missing. I saw you ponder: Is there something more? This secret yearning often made your mind wander. You had other desires that he didn’t quite meet, greater hopes and dreams.
VIII. First Love
Florida
7/16/22
A depth was in you that was screaming to be seen. But you were afraid because he became your home. Your only friend and your only safe place to go. What would be the point if you ever let go? You already made it so far. You wanted to believe your story could be your fairytale. I know how much you loved him. I know it was true. But there’s a big piece missing—a love for you.
My dear, there's still one thing you don’t quite know; two broken people don’t make a heart whole.
There’s a hole in your heart that only One can fill. You run from Him now but one day you’ll see what true love is meant to be. God doesn’t want you to be a damsel in distress; He wants you to be a queen, and He longs to give you a king greater than anything you have ever seen. You won’t believe all the things you will one day see!
It’s a world so different, still quite foreign to me. But until then, you will both face many trials, and the pain will cut deep. There will be a day when you have little peace, and the weight of those days will make you both fall. I have tears in my eyes as I sit and recall. The worst kind of pain I've watched you endure, but I promise you now, it won’t be in vain!